good day everyone.
hmmm.
rough days been rolling down and queueing up,
stacking every single problem and create a broken heart,
yes, it was devastating and tiring,
happy moments torn down to pieces,
every bits of my smile taken away,
no more sincere laughter,
no more,
can i just kill someone and later die in vain?
yes, i had it and i want to run away.
it's been tough for these few weeks (well it seems like forever to me), and i am especially missing so many people every single day.
when i went to Semenanjung last few weeks for a training, i made few of my friends to come to the hotel room to meet as my schedule during the training was packed (it's a 3 days 2 nights training). i was extremely happy and thankful for that. i couldn't ask for more.
but not a single could stay longer as they got something else already lined up in their own schedule. as disappointing as it was, but i believe they put lots of effort to come and meet up with me.
the one who came on the first day was a friend who i've known since Form 1 in MRSM Kuala Klawang, my homeroom-mates for 3 years and then we worked together as Student's Representative Council in MRSM Muar for almost 2 years.
a really good motivator and extremely a good listener. very good with his words, even when he went the other way around than i did, he uses proper words and you won't get pissed at all.
when i mentioned to him that i was in Shah Alam, with no hesitation, even a little he said he'll be on his way. i would be lying if i said i was only glad to see him, it was more than that. he slept in and went back the next day after having breakfast with us at the hotel. he said he would come again the next day but he was too tired and fell asleep after doing his part-time job. it's ok :)
and later on the 2nd day, here comes amongst of my favorite buddies. they are my brothers from my foundation year. one was my housemate, the other was my 'tumpang-bilik'-mate :3 both are groupmates, awesome D6!
due to going astray while on their way (even when both had Shah Alam very close to their hearts), they were a little late. we had our dinner at the hotel and they stayed in while me and Hazim went along the program throughout the night. we just spent the whole night in the room catching up with each other and talking nonsense (as usual). the time just slipped by very fast and it's already hours after midnight. while sending them out the hotel, it was really heartbreaking because the meeting was too short. believe me when i say i couldn't let them go when i held both of them in my arms and i literally almost cried.
it was so much pain to just held it in and do nothing.
i want to go home and stayed there longer.
as both ibu abah sent me to the airport, i couldn't help but just to hug them as long as i can but darn it flight time, just darn it!
yes, this is me beyond homesick.
hang in there Farhan, few more weeks to go :)
